"RECOVERY'S A BITCH"

 COMING IN 2009 

The sequel to "Dancing With The Devil" is a humorous look at leaving addiction behind and repairing what's                 left of your mind. 

  Now Available In Hardcover And Paperback

                         THE AWARD WINNING  

     "DANCING WITH THE DEVIL"

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE     

October 20, 2009 Media 

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USA BOOK NEWS ANNOUNCES WINNERS AND FINALISTS OF THE NATIONAL “BEST BOOKS 2009” AWARDS



“Dancing With The Devil” details with such clarity the collateral damage incurred by anyone who has been touched by addiction. Jacqueline Brown’s debut novel gives you an in-depth look at how debilitating, frightening, and exhausting it is to raise a child under the influence. It is a tale of hope, faith, and finally salvation.


From page one of this uniquely written dialogue you will be captivated by the lyrical conversations between the author and the angel sent to watch over her. You will come to understand that the unconditional love of a parent can be so binding, so intensely powerful, so completely absorbing they become willing to lose all of themselves to save an addicted child from       “Dancing With The Devil.”  

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                       "In motherhood 

                        We are invincible 

    Except for that which touches our children

                                We fall 

                            We fall hard 

                 And sometimes we shatter"

Drugs don't just kill the addict, they kill the soul of those who must bear witness to their demise.

No one knows the pain better than a parent who watches a child slowly fade away due to his or her drug addiction. It steals the joy from every breath, every heartbeat, and every thought. It keeps you awake at night waiting and wondering if they will make it home intact. 

Far too often you find yourself preparing for the call - the one that will change your life irrevocably - the call that bespeaks that the devil has always been one step ahead of you and the game is finally over.

But you hang in there and do whatever you can to save them until that day comes - if it comes. You force yourself to hold on, to be strong enough for both of you, to survive no matter what the cost. 

The collateral damage it causes is unbearable at times but you learn to persevere. 

Whether you're a mother,  father, brother or sister, the rules are the same. You have to find that one tiny shred of hope and cling to it like a life raft because without you - there will be no saving. 

 Meet The Author

Date                         Place Time   

Sunday April 26, 2009 UCLA Campus, Westwood,  CA  11:00 a.m - 12:00 p.m.

Los Angeles Times Festival of Books                 *Book signing*                    

I want to send out a big thanks to all my new fans and readers. The Festival book signing was a huge success! Please feel free to e-mail me your comments about the book or just to say hello. I would be more than happy to talk with those who are going down the same path with their children. Support in getting through a rough patch can be extremely helpful so don't hesitate to contact me. I would be happy to speak with you! Please feel free to write a review on Amazon or Barnes And Noble.

 READER COMMENTS

"Just got it delivered....read the first sonata and was so moved, blown away I had to put it down.......we know the truth when we see it. The book has left me speechless; it is so brave, profound and poignant;  a glorious meditation. I pray you have huge success with this, it is a masterpiece." 


 
"I just finished reading your book.  On a scale from 1 to 5, it is a 10.  It is written beautifully and with an honesty that punched me in the gut.  I can't stop thinking about it.  It's heart wrenching and filled with feeling.  Every parent should read it and it should be read by any person in recovery." 

"It's chilling...raw...a must read."

Reviews

 Addiction is a terrible thing

 Reader Rating 

Posted February 19, 2009, 11:55 AM EST: It seems like an impossible life when you're raising a child addicted to drugs. Brown seems to have found the one link that kept her going during the years she spent trying to keep her child alive. It ends with hope in the air and proves that tenacity is stronger than outside influences.

4.0 out of 5 stars Couldn't put it down!, March 20, 2009
By Jacklyn Curry (Los Angeles, CA United States)

This is an intense read; emotionally like looking through a peep-hole at an open-heart surgery. But raw anguish and confusion are relieved by the shreds of hope and glimpses of understanding provided by an "angel" (real or imagined??) who helps this mother-at-the-end-of-her-rope to tie a knot and hang on. Reads like a very personal journal: as if both the mother and her daughter's very survival depended upon her accurately and immediately recording every nuance on whatever scraps of paper were at hand. But this mother is no saint either...coping with her own self-destruction tendencies are part of the dance. Recommended to anyone battling substance addiction.

                      

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jacqui@jacquibrown.com


       WHAT AM I WORKING ON NOW?

Both my daughter and I have moved on to a different chapter in our lives and as she turns her life around through sobriety she is discovering all that she has missed. I too am finding a new place to begin and believe me - it's a far more peaceful and ordinary life.

"RECOVERY'S A BITCH"  is my follow novel up to "Dancing With The Devil". It's a humorous look at my personal journey of healing, growing, and learning to let go. Release date scheduled for late 2009.

I am also working on an as yet untitled novel and a feature screenplay. That should be enough to keep me out of trouble for a while.

           

COMING IN 2009


"Recovery's A Bitch" is about filling up the big black void left in the wake of recovery. It doesn't matter what you're recovering from, you must learn new tricks to move forward into a more peaceful existence.

Never in my life did I feel so undone by what was left of my sanity after my daughter got sober. Sounds foolish and crazy I know, but the brain is a trickster and motherhood--well that can be a real bitch too!

The humor, sometimes satirical and warped, details how you have to learn to bust outside the box you've been in. You have to learn to let go of old habits, like waiting for the next shoe to drop, because once the closet is full you're done. It's also about getting your balls back so you don't have to walk on eggshells for the rest of your life.

Having read nearly all the self-help books on the market I decided to compile all the things I've learned from them in this book. Yes, some of it is serious but mostly, it's about learning to look at things you don't like in a whole new way in order for them to look different and doable.

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              "DANCING WITH THE DEVIL" Excerpt

My Heart Be Still...

Each turn—each twist, do I go deeper, enter the pain, let it absorb me in order to let go 

Too many questions to each beat as my heart races seeking answers

Where are you I scream silent

No one can know the dilemma of my life, the secret held close, the bottle that my hand so precariously wraps around as each day passes 

It was meant to heal, but instead it hides, only hides

It is evil like the rest that comes through my door

But, too much façade painstakingly put in place may break under pressure,where too many lies run like water under the bridge 

I am calm, normal, undeniable sane on the outside 

I am immortal in the eyes of the innocent, the fruit of my loin who hang on my words 

I am the mother Goddess crowned in glory as each spewed into life- my blood as protection 

It was a promise, trust me—trust me 

Lying protected in my arms, trust me—I will do no harm 

But failure lurks 

The devil has a spotter 

A blink of the eye, a turn of the cheek 

One second in time, I fall, I break, I fail you 

Heaven at a distance, hell on your doorstep 

A promise unfolds like dirty laundry 

A heart shatters as the darkness of her world unfolds 

Collateral damage is imminent 

Let me hold you forever I call out to the woman child 

My blood is yours if it will save you 

My eyes are yours if they will make you see 

My legs are yours if they will bring you back to me

Oh innocence so lost, irrevocably changed, by time—by choice—by madness 

It shatters me, every bone—every nerve, every breath I take 

I’m falling as you are, I am too weak to battle 

I am at your side, with you in silence, with you in your pain 

Will it end in death—not life, my heart cries out to know 

Oh sweet angel dark and velvet surrounded in light 

Help me—I’m begging 

Come show me the way to reach a soul on its way to dying 

Not mine I fear—but hers 

Will me your strength to hold on my angel 

Give me the words to save a girl lost—so lost 

Sweet youth drifting away on a journey 

Dark—dank—addicted 

It is fearful here 

Speak into the wind and fill me so that I might breathe towards her ears, on a chance she is listening, on a chance she will feel it against her skin 

Oh angel, save me so I may save a girl like her 

The one who on my breast dreamed of pureness and wonder, of life not death, of a future not darkness 

Hold tight, hold tight, you are divine and will rise, you whisper in the quiet to assure my heart opened wide like a wound 

I feel it on the breeze on a night still as stone 

You are here beside me holding my pain 

Your words rise in my heart

Why did I doubt 

Forgive me my foibles, I live in fear that the devil can outrun me to her soul 

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